so life sucks. it has once again hit rock bottom...really this time it has. its pretty much so bad that i cant even talk to my best friend about it. and i usually tell her whats wrong with me. so ok the first part, the car accident....fucked me up in the head pretty bad, to the point of i cry every night cuz i cant deal with it. the 2nd part, me and jason dont have a car, well we have a car it just wont move, and my parents hound us on that, and we have to reali on others to take us somewhere. i hate doing that. the 3rd part, jason got kicked out and i pretty much did too by what they said to me. so now me and jason are looking for a place to go, otherwise were homeless. mom and dad are being nice enough to let us live there till we get a place, but there hounding us on that too, and its a pain in the ass, and now im crying every day, night, whenever becuase of that. i dont even feel like going to school, and im not going, i have pretty much dropped out cuz i have so many more things to do, i have too much on my mind, and not enough time, so schol got taken out for a lil bit, and now im stuck in this horrible mood that i cant get out of and its pissing me off. i want to be happy but i cant. i mean the littlest things are fustrating the hell out of me and i just break down and cry. and then jason will ask what is wrong and for me to talk to him and then ill talk to him and start crying. i mean the only good part to this life right now is him, hes there to hold me in his arms, wipe away my tears, kiss my head and tells me things will get better. hes there to say i love you and to make sure im ok. treats ne better than anyone every has, and is always there to protect me and stand by me. thick or thin, were in this together. i love him for this. i love him for him, and i hear this from so many people, of him not being a great guy, of him seeming like a low life or someone that wont be able to support me, and yada yada....and nobody gets to see that he takes care of me and helps me, and that our love is strong. jason is the only really good thing in my life (....oh and kira, i love you too, and i wish i could talk to you and just pour my heart out to you but just talking about all and i mean all of it is heart breaking to me and i cant stand it ) jason is my life right now and he means the world to me. but i gotta go.